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Oct 10, 2023Liked by Samuel Kronen

I catch myself skimming your prose. Not because it's hard to read in the usual sense; on the contrary it's clear and clearly beautiful. But the reality you describe, or refer to, is hard to face, even in the reading-about. The voice in my head says, "Surely there must still be something to do, something left to try. Some way to fix this, to recover your health. Some way home." As of right now, that isn't true. What is true is your suffering (and that of everyone with ME/CFS) and I CAN"T HELP. But I can honour the truth -- and the effort it took for you to to get here and to write this -- by not turning away. By reading slowly; by reading reflectively. And so I will.

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Oct 10, 2023Liked by Samuel Kronen

Hello Samuel,

Thank you for reaching out to your readers and letting us know how you are doing. I keep your emails in my inbox so I can send you loving prayers throughout the day. I often wondered how you could write so intensely while not feeling well. You are correct: writing is physical. I admire you so much for sharing your beautiful self with us. And you are a creative inspiration to me. I am a poet and recently I was struggling with a piece and I thought of you and your generosity of self and that helped me finish the poem.

Still, the most important thing is for you to take care of yourself and put yourself first. Write when it moves you and don’t worry about the rest.

You have a group of devoted fans who only want the best for you.

Xoxo

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Oct 10, 2023Liked by Samuel Kronen

Sam, it's wonderful that you've posted something for your followers...the strength it must have taken is enormous, but is deeply appreciated by those who value your eloquence and deep thought. You are an inspiration to all of us amidst our own suffering.

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Oct 21, 2023Liked by Samuel Kronen

Thank you for this Samuel. I needed to reread and absorb before replying. I was diagnosed with M.E or chronic fatigue syndrome many years ago. The first ten years or so were miserable and I felt like I had lost everything, although I believe you have had it worse. It is difficult for me to say this without it sounding trite or like psychobabble but I came to a point where I began to largely accept it as if it was just my karma or whatever. After this there came a slow and difficult return to some normality. I have never returned to full time work and I'm certainly not "cured" but, despite days when I want to tear my hair out, my life is much better. I'm cautious to say here what I believe but I think there is something more than what we see around us. Some people may feel frustration about what I have written but let me be clear that I am absolutely not suggesting you can "just pull yourself together", I am not certain this can work for others and maybe I just got lucky, but I believe there is something in it. Also, I am not saying you should just accept and not attempt further treatments. It is more an acceptance that we have to sometimes bear the suffering. I hope I've been clear. Your writing has been valuable to me and many others and I don't want you to give up on life. I do believe that you will find meaning in your life.

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Oct 14, 2023Liked by Samuel Kronen

Such an honor, Samuel. Let me know if you would like me to send you a formatted version - whenever you are ready. Sending lots of love. Xoxo

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